I decided to start an online journal here because i thought it would help me get through some things going on in my life and maybe even understand myself better because as the days go by i feel like im losing myself faster and faster. I can play the part of a normal happy college student but i fell like that is just a mask of me. How can people tell me what they think they know about me..when i cant even answer that question myself. I let go of alot of things in my life  past and present and just when i feel like its all behind me, I find it staring me right in the face,waiting in the subconcious parts of my mind, lingering. When im alone i feel like the world is going to come crashing down. And this feeling, isnt just a sudden feeling, no, its been with me for so long. I just have to find that one moment in time where is all began but looking back will open a can of warms of unwanted emotion that ive held back for so long. The pent up aggression and anguish will come out but idk if it will be for the better of me or the destruction of my mind and soul. I guess i will ave to see...maybe this journal will help me reveal the inner me....help me get through what i m dealing with now in my life....the question is....will you take the journey with me?
 

Current Mood: drained

Hola readers....this is my first entry and i have yet to decide where exactly i want to start! Well i guess i can just describe my life in a nutshell...like its that easy lol  Well i'll try! I grew up in forthood and in killeen, Tx. I then moved to Manor Tx, and made wonderful relationships with ppl i dont even talk to today! Dont you just love when that happens! haha Anyways Ive been through alot in my highschool days...from being taken advantage of to being accused of having a relationship with a teacher...O yea that is everygurls dream in high school : /  But thats a whole different journal right there!! ANyways back to my life story...I was a varsity cheerleader through most of highschool...atleast until i got tired of bein looked at dirty by the JV! lol Now I attend Texas State University and the drama continue..but hey ima girl..its supposed to happen right?....WORNG!!! well i have to go study so until next time!!! ENJOY!


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